Day 1: Why I'm Still Single : The Truth

The Single Woman’s 30-Day Blogging Challenge | Day1 | Why I'm Still Single : The Truth. Hi, everyone. How's life, doing good InsyaAllah. Amin. Have a nice day all, and please take care of your health, haze is all around, rite. As for today, and the next 29 day, I'm gonna spill and throw out the true and honest words here. Thanks goes to TheSingleWoman for the creative idea of doing this. Ada jugak satu entry setiap hari, at lease. Hehe.

I am now 24 years old. Young enough? Old enough? Nope, because doom, death, marriage and regulation are in the hands of God. Alright, 24. People said, that's Okey, you are still young, yeah but years pass like a blink of eye though. The time runs so fast. Right. I've met with women on 28 years old and above in their age, some are scared enough to be said all alone, single. Some are proud enough to be independently single. I have everything. I have a house under my name, I have my own car, I have a good job, I have enough saving in the bank and literally I don't need man to support me, confidently they said that. Because "I am too fabulous to settle"??.

As for me, I don’t know exactly why I’m still single. Am I waiting from God to send me a good guy. Waiting and do nothing? kind of urgghh? The negative thought of me sometimes doubt. Why I'm still single? I am ugly, I am not attractive? Astaghfirullahalazim. Tak baik cakap macam tu kan? Allah ciptakan manusia itu sebaik-baik kejadian. Be grateful people. Belum sampai jodoh mungkin. I am 24. And positively I am thinking that I'm still young to step on a relationship. I still have the things that I want to accomplish for myself. Oh, typical answer. Yet, a truth from a 24 years old girl. 

Frankly speaking, I never 'meet' guys. 'Meet' in the bracket of date. Eye to eye. I decline not to do so. Reason? Because I'm not good in making up a relationship with guys, I am really and really not good in this kind of things. Am I that conservative? Obviously, sangat tak pandai nak bersosial. Reality bites, ain't right? And the truth is I am scare of being dumped, being betrayed. I don't hate guys. How can I hate guys when my father brings me to this life. 

Why I'm still single? The truth is I am not well prepare enough and I am not ready yet. Honestly, I am not ready to share everything with someone else. And I think I'm not good enough to be a good wife, a good mother. I am miles away to go there.  I want a good partner in my life. So that, I want to prepare myself to be like one. Caring women, loving women, kind-hearted women. I want to be that woman, but I’m not that woman yet. I’m on a journey to become her. Corrupt women are for corrupt men, and corrupt men for corrupt women. Good women are for good men, and good men for good women. They are innocent of the calumnies people utter. There shall be forgiveness for them and a generous provision. (An-Nur verse 26)

Whatever it is, everything happen for a reason. Muslim, percaya kepada Qada dan Qadar Allah itu rukun Iman. Beriman kepada qada dan qadar adalah menyakini dengan sepenuh hati adanya ketentuan Allah SWT yang berlaku bagi semua mahluk hidup. For a single woman, fear NOT, we are together. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Just follow the flow. NO. Be the flow. We lead our way.